When a person snaps, they hit the proverbial brick wall... Everything they have been speeding to avoid finally gets past them and they crash into it in a violent fit of rage, anxiety, depression, or worse... They tend to think things that, if they were still in the right state of mind, would never have crossed their mind in the first place... They think that they were never loved, that they were meaningless to someone, that maybe, just maybe, they were set up for failure from the very beginning... They know in their hearts that it isnt true but yet, they throw caution to the wind, hoping against hope for one answer, the one they know is real, while expecting the one their mind fabricated.
Your mind is an asshole... It will tell you whatever it thinks you might actually believe... when your mind makes a reality for you, it controls you... It consumes you... It makes you do things, stupid things, to the ones you love... Like telling them they never loved you and that your relationship was retaliation and retribution for something you had done to someone else... You know its not the truth, you know the other person loves you with all their heart, yet, you make the accusations and you make the situation worse... You know they have their own demons to face and yet, because yours finally got you, you add more stress to them and make them push against you even harder... However, if they love you, if they truly love you, and they really want to be with you, they will be willing to forgive... In time...
When you let your issues get past you, and you hit that wall, you need to kick the door off the hinges, pull yourself from the wreckage, and rebuild your ride... You need to make it better than it was before... You need to reinforce the roll cage, put in a better safety harness, and get some better brakes because, when you spin out of control again, and it will happen, the only one who can protect you... is you... Your life is what you make of it and other people can only influence it, either for the better, or for the worse...
If you make your life better, you have something better to offer someone else... If that person is doing the same, come to the realization, that they are doing it for you too... Maybe they feel they have nothing to offer you... Because maybe, just maybe, they hit their proverbial brick wall...
